been a busy bee :)

So its been about 10 days since my last blog, sorry my blogger friends, this chic has been on vacation and sick ugh!

My momma took me and her friend and friends daughter to Port Aransas, for my and the friends daughters birthdays :) she turned 17 and I 34 oh my oh my!

The condo was beautiful and beachy and the view was breathtaking, I sat out on the balcony and read to the sound of the ocean waves breaking against the shore, was a lovely 4 days.

I came home with horrid pain in my abdomen, going for a ultrasound of the gallbladder, this vomiting and pain eating anything from fruit to meat is driving me bonkers, hope they find the culprit and fix me soon, this chic loves her food, LOL

My "friend" who is incarcerated has finally been transferred to a permanent unit a.k.a. prison, which means that I can now visit him without glass, and begin to build on our relationship.
I have a binder (notebook) full of letters from him, the excitement I get when getting a letter brings a huge smile to my face, although now I can email him, cheaper than mailing out letters daily!!!

Here are some snapshots from my birthday get away!

Our condo was so beachy :) I loved it!

My cozy beach room :)

my land

So I went out to my land today to get a feel for how I want the house to sit.

I felt a calm come over me out there, like my soul saying this will be forever home, I sure hope so, at least the land is paid for free and clear.

Once I got through measuring and exploring the shop on my land the beauty of the sunset caught my eye, it was settling behind the trees, what a view I will have each evening.

Love living in the ozarks, natural beauty surrounds me.

getting back on track....

So the sickness is getting better, I now feel like I can eat without exploding, ugh.

Mom and I stayed home today and watched movies and talked, it is a day that I will cherish.

Since dad died I realize just how fast time with those we love goes bye.

Going to start blogging some about my guy, he is incarcerated at the moment, for a year, :(

He and I met back in November once he wrapped his arms around me I felt like I was meant to be with him, to be his and him be mine, he felt the same way.

Parole revocation is what he was picked up for, and like he says this will be behind him so that we can't build our relationship without any hicups.

The letters he writes me can't come fast enough, and although hesitant my mom is supporting me in the decision I am making by being with him.

I am going to take this time and focus on me, find myself and become who I am.

Missed several days...

I fell behind on my 365 days of blogging a lots happening in life for me.

I just got home today from the hospital, ulcers, inflamation and bleeding of the stomach have caused this chic some severe pain and sickness.

Today makes day 5 of not hearing from my sweetheart, he is incarcerated and is in transit between county jail and the prison unit he is being transfered too.

I hope this lesson he is being taught sticks with him because I give one chance so if he blows it thats it I move on and dont look back.

Glad to be home in my bed tonight.

spent the day with my momma

Today has been a great day, mom and I spent some much needed quality time together.

Dinner at Chili's and then pedicure and manicures, nothing better than mother daughter days.

We ended the night back here at home with mom cooking a home cooked meal of meatloaf, baked beans, rolls and fresh salad, nothing better than my mommas cooking, or I think anyways.

I have been asked on a date this weekend how ever I think its too soon for me, I just don't feel like having the stress that comes with meeting some one new, or the energy needed to enjoy the date.

Gonna watch the movie The Help and fall asleep.

Took this shot of the beauty of sun and clouds, life is so worth living.

1 am

I have unpacked a few more of my things and yet still haven't found items im looking for, there here somewhere in this pile of stuff.

The house is so quiet tonight I have music and a movie on just to avoid hearing my own thoughts.

I think of my situation as a do over a fresh start most of the time, then there are those times I feel like a complete failure in that all of my belongings now fit in a small bedroom at my mothers house, ughh.

I know this temporary I'll have my own place again, and for now I will save save save.

The bright side is I have a living room set, and washer and dryer going to storage that my mom purchased for me, when I get ready to move in elsewhere, at first I thought it a hint to hurry and get out, but then reassured myself that she was just helping me out :)

finally home

Ok so I missed blogging yesterday ended up staying at a hotel outside memphis, just couldnt finish driving the remaining 4 hours once it got dark and I had sat in construction for 2 hours.

The hotels wifi wasn't working which sucked for this internet addict :)

I finally made it here to my moms around 1 today my sister and brother in law luckily were here to help unload the overstuffed car of mine, and now I am gradually unpacking which feels strange to be living in my moms house in  my bedroom at this age.

Going to watch casper with my nephew who is 6 and enjoy being in his life again.

Knoxville TN

So I got on the road this morning for home.

8 hours later I stopped for the night, hotels are not fun for this germ phobia of mine.

Hope to be home tomorrow night.

The smokey mountains are so beautiful :)

Off to try and sleep!

no longer putting it off...

This time tomorrow I hope to be between here and there.

Gonna let Sam run in the  morning, we already said our goodbyes, he knows I love him.

As for the other person, its spoken, we are both in our own ways broken, healed, and equally frustrated, how awkward to be in love, and somehow, somewhere along the way it fade.

These past two years have been rough, hadn't seen my family for the full two years, the last time I seen any of them but my mom was when my dad died May 9, 2009.

This new journey is sure to be full of memories as I will be around familiar places, family, and friends again for how long I don't know, at times I feel part of my dad's gypsie soul in me.

Day 4.......of 365

So I am up early, not dragging butt today, maybe the tired blahness is leaving me alone.

I have the car packed, need to shove the last of these clothes in it then I'll take a picture :)

I know I have left several things that I want, but dont need, if they are meant to be mine I'll get themm in the mail one day I suppose.

Let Sam out this morning to run and I swear he knows somethings up, he ignores me a lot more now, poor pup I know he thinks I am abandoning him, how ever a dog that has grew up on a farm with lots of room to roam and run could never live in the city cooped up inside.

Hard to believe my marriage is over, I am making the final decision here and while I have and will shed tears over this, it is for the best.

If one of us isn't happy it makes us both unhappy, I don't want to live the rest of my life bitter, sad, or angry for sticking with a sinking ship.

The last load of laundry wont wash itself so I better get to it.

Happy Wednesday blogger friends!

Day 3 of 365.....

So I slept all day again, I have to get my energy back someday I hope, insomnia and this cold wind doesn't help much either.

I guess its a doctors trip tomorrow, no fun.

Onto the move, the weather is suppose to be sunny and warmer on Thursday, yes I will be on the road.

Off to eat sphagetti and re check my list.

Well the for sure trip is upon me...

I plan to leave Saturday if not before, I know that put off my trip by a few days, ok a week.

I haven't been feeling so good, this arm is being a nuisance, lymphodema stinks.

This drive ahead's going to be a bit much on it and its already bugging me more and more.

It being just me I can get more stuff in my car, how ever it may be best to let my little sister fly out and ride back with me, I stress over it though.

Looking back at pictures I found this one, I enjoyed the mental break remembering this view.

Day 2 of 365...

I slept most all of the day, a migrane is never fun.

Today my picture is of my aloe plant, purchased a year ago looking sad and dying, I think it is looking a bit healthier just hope the winter doesn't make it sick.

Off to finish checking for items I may of almost forgot, late start to getting on the road but whats a few days difference right?

365

So todays January 1st, I hope to post everyday if this year.

Sometimes it may only be a picture, others  blog, who knows with this brain.

As for my move, I postponed it a few days, my friend flew in from Arkansas she and I have been bff's since we were 13 and celebrated New Years in Raleigh.

It was a nice break from the mental stress of packing, moving, a life change.

Plan to be on the road Wednesday, rain or shine.

We even had matching ears :)