been a busy bee :)

So its been about 10 days since my last blog, sorry my blogger friends, this chic has been on vacation and sick ugh!

My momma took me and her friend and friends daughter to Port Aransas, for my and the friends daughters birthdays :) she turned 17 and I 34 oh my oh my!

The condo was beautiful and beachy and the view was breathtaking, I sat out on the balcony and read to the sound of the ocean waves breaking against the shore, was a lovely 4 days.

I came home with horrid pain in my abdomen, going for a ultrasound of the gallbladder, this vomiting and pain eating anything from fruit to meat is driving me bonkers, hope they find the culprit and fix me soon, this chic loves her food, LOL

My "friend" who is incarcerated has finally been transferred to a permanent unit a.k.a. prison, which means that I can now visit him without glass, and begin to build on our relationship.
I have a binder (notebook) full of letters from him, the excitement I get when getting a letter brings a huge smile to my face, although now I can email him, cheaper than mailing out letters daily!!!

Here are some snapshots from my birthday get away!

Our condo was so beachy :) I loved it!

My cozy beach room :)

my land

So I went out to my land today to get a feel for how I want the house to sit.

I felt a calm come over me out there, like my soul saying this will be forever home, I sure hope so, at least the land is paid for free and clear.

Once I got through measuring and exploring the shop on my land the beauty of the sunset caught my eye, it was settling behind the trees, what a view I will have each evening.

Love living in the ozarks, natural beauty surrounds me.

getting back on track....

So the sickness is getting better, I now feel like I can eat without exploding, ugh.

Mom and I stayed home today and watched movies and talked, it is a day that I will cherish.

Since dad died I realize just how fast time with those we love goes bye.

Going to start blogging some about my guy, he is incarcerated at the moment, for a year, :(

He and I met back in November once he wrapped his arms around me I felt like I was meant to be with him, to be his and him be mine, he felt the same way.

Parole revocation is what he was picked up for, and like he says this will be behind him so that we can't build our relationship without any hicups.

The letters he writes me can't come fast enough, and although hesitant my mom is supporting me in the decision I am making by being with him.

I am going to take this time and focus on me, find myself and become who I am.

Missed several days...

I fell behind on my 365 days of blogging a lots happening in life for me.

I just got home today from the hospital, ulcers, inflamation and bleeding of the stomach have caused this chic some severe pain and sickness.

Today makes day 5 of not hearing from my sweetheart, he is incarcerated and is in transit between county jail and the prison unit he is being transfered too.

I hope this lesson he is being taught sticks with him because I give one chance so if he blows it thats it I move on and dont look back.

Glad to be home in my bed tonight.

spent the day with my momma

Today has been a great day, mom and I spent some much needed quality time together.

Dinner at Chili's and then pedicure and manicures, nothing better than mother daughter days.

We ended the night back here at home with mom cooking a home cooked meal of meatloaf, baked beans, rolls and fresh salad, nothing better than my mommas cooking, or I think anyways.

I have been asked on a date this weekend how ever I think its too soon for me, I just don't feel like having the stress that comes with meeting some one new, or the energy needed to enjoy the date.

Gonna watch the movie The Help and fall asleep.

Took this shot of the beauty of sun and clouds, life is so worth living.

1 am

I have unpacked a few more of my things and yet still haven't found items im looking for, there here somewhere in this pile of stuff.

The house is so quiet tonight I have music and a movie on just to avoid hearing my own thoughts.

I think of my situation as a do over a fresh start most of the time, then there are those times I feel like a complete failure in that all of my belongings now fit in a small bedroom at my mothers house, ughh.

I know this temporary I'll have my own place again, and for now I will save save save.

The bright side is I have a living room set, and washer and dryer going to storage that my mom purchased for me, when I get ready to move in elsewhere, at first I thought it a hint to hurry and get out, but then reassured myself that she was just helping me out :)

finally home

Ok so I missed blogging yesterday ended up staying at a hotel outside memphis, just couldnt finish driving the remaining 4 hours once it got dark and I had sat in construction for 2 hours.

The hotels wifi wasn't working which sucked for this internet addict :)

I finally made it here to my moms around 1 today my sister and brother in law luckily were here to help unload the overstuffed car of mine, and now I am gradually unpacking which feels strange to be living in my moms house in  my bedroom at this age.

Going to watch casper with my nephew who is 6 and enjoy being in his life again.